0 comment(s) so far. Please add yours!
Written for the 2004 Short Story Contest – Category: Not My Kink
Confessions
by Mija
In our room last summer, a length of rope hung from the rafters. It didn’t stand out very much until after I noticed it the first time. A basic white nylon. Strong-looking, fitting in perfectly with the rustic beams.
Deceptive casualness masked the tightness of its knot.
The rope could have been hanging there for years, left over from some forgotten DIY. Or a relic of some former tenant’s misguided storage system.
It could have, but it hadn’t.
I knew that without being told. Because I know you, I knew that rope had another purpose. That it was the first link in a chain. Or chain-knot if you’d rather. It haunted me. Each night as my beloved slept beside me, I’d imagine that length being used in new ways.
Horrifying ways.
Erotic ways.
Evil ways.
And not on me. On you.
What sort of a friend am I, imagining you stretched like that? Your slender arms raised and stretched to their fullest length, your perfect dancer’s body bared for flogging? Or even, crueler, whipping, with your skin pulled tight?
Did you know I thought of you like that?
My friend, I imagine you saying, “that’s nothing I wouldn’t want for myself.” But you have always been forgiving. Nothing in my imagination could horrify you. Or so you have always claimed.
But that rope hung heavy in my imagination.
In my fantasies.
Yet it wasn’t my body in my mind’s eye during last summer’s sleepless nights. It was yours.
I used you.
My mind built a platform from sawhorses. Dressed you in thin shifts and stood you on it, red crop marks bleeding through the thin white fabric. I invented a cruel, uniformed man to order your thin neck through the noose.
The noose which hung from that rope, tied tight to the rafters.
Sometimes, my friend, you were blindfolded. Your hands tied behind you. Struggling to obey, to find the noose, while small, stinging flicks of the crop raised red welts on your graceful calves.
I could hear your brave whimpers.
Honestly, my friend, most nights I saved you. Imagined I saw this because of stumbling on the scene at just the wrong moment. My appearance making everyone fall out of character. All of us smiling at the faux seriousness.
I imagined tracing your welts with my fingertips, wiping them with lotion. Helping. Healing. Kissing…
Are you nodding chica? Am I such a good friend?
Or, doth the lady protest too much?
No.
No.
Yes.
There was my last, worst fantasy. The one where nothing goes right. Where your hands are tied too tight to save you. Where the blindfold blocks all light. Where the noose cuts off your safeword. The one where the rope hangs tight from the rafters. And you, lost to all of us.
Unspeakable loss. Unmentionable pain.
Savage beauty.
Splatters of bright red against new snow.
[This isn’t my scene — I’m not into flogging, or rope or even bondage. And judical scenes are interesting, but not my thing. Still, I cried as I wrote that ending.
On another note, I’m told by reliable sources one can never have too much rope. <eg>]